Did you ever love me, at all?

I tell the universe, "If I am so unloveable, please take away my desire to be loved". Take away my desire, so I no longer waste my birthday wishes, dandelions, 11:11's and shooting stars.  Every wish I've ever had has gone right to you, I've spent years begging the stars, clocks, plants and candles to make you mine.  I've wished and even prayed, time and time again, but it all leads to nothing for me.  There is no love coming my way, I get close to imagine what life would be like if I had more, before it's ripped away from me all over again.  Those I've wished for my entire life have never wished me for once, they never even wanted me in the first place.  This time I beg "Take away my desire to be loved". I have no use for it, no purpose to it, I give it all away and all those people just wish me away.  I pour out my love, lay my heart on the table, reopen every wound, all to prove my love and you don't even bat an eye.  If I tell the universe, "If I am so unloveable, please take away my desire to be loved."  I'd rather be cold and heartless than spend another moment being me.