Why have you abandoned me?

I looked at your contact in my phone again and it started to look blurry.  And this time, it wasn't because my eyes were full of tears,  I think it is my heart feeling something I didn't know was possible:  I look at your name: And I feel resentment.  I look at it and wonder, why you are still a contact, when I am not even allowed to talk to you.  Then I look into the mirror and see the saddest pair of eyes:   Asking why I need to feel so loved to badly.   Why do I fight for something thats already dead?